Sadly it was one that contained my heels
Not the one with my Xbox
USPS doesn’t know where that package is
And yes I was bummed about it
But then it hit me
My baby blanket is in that box
And yeah I’m 21
Its not a security item anymore
But my grandmother that made me that blanket passed away in march
It is one of those irreplaceable items
And now it might begone
I didn’t sleep last night do to excitement
I cant sleep tonight due to anxiety that I lost that blanket forever
She passed away
Its something she made special for me
I just idk
My mom was talking about insurance on the package wondering if there was any and yeah an xbox is replaceable but that blanket
So I went through his face book with curiosity month picture of me is one of his wedding photos I’m in
And the there is a couple I was cropped out of from when my brother was younger
There’s millions of pics of my brother and sister a ton that out date his face book by years
A bunch of family photos of him how psychotic cheating wife and my brother and sister
Its like I don’t exist
Idk why this surprises me
Idk why it hurts I should be use to it
I just idk I need to vent about it I guess
It sucks to know you mean nothing to someone how they can not care for you but your siblings can be important
I just idk
He can have his little family and life cause I’m so done with the emotional abuse and neglect I received from that monstrous bitch
He can stay with his whore of a life that treated his daughter like shit
He is the bone missing out cause he has only brought misery into my life so I really shouldn’t care or even give him the to,e of day anymore
He doesn’t deserve it
I’m just so lucky I have an amazing mother
And they will die miserable and alone
Because that’s what they deserve
I just hope they don’t fuck up those beautiful babies cause of it wasn’t for my mother is be one messed up individual
I use to game daily and havnt played in over 2 months
this is an exciting day
im gonna be rusty
im so excited
I am going to re beat bio shock infinite again today
and play resident evil like crazy
and and maybe some call of duty but i dont really feel like raging todayso idk maybe not
im just so excited
and the usps tracker says its in hemet now
how an i suppose to wait till mail come
enough about sex positions has anyone discovered a reading position which doesn’t get uncomfortable after 5 minutes
white girls who want my culture’s bindis and saris and henna
take my skin colour too
and my dark brown lips
take my self-hatred because i don’t fit into the euro-centric ideals of beauty
take the oppression too
take the history of colonization that has devastated my country
and the drones that currently devastate my country
take all the bad stuff too
not just the pretty, shiny, sparky bits
take the ugly, dehumanizing and shitty parts too
I feel horrid already on top of that when ever I’m like really really sick I get super emotional
I feel like crying
I hate this so much
Andi just feel so lonely right now
And like my insides are melting
I just want to feel better
"Look at this one. Do you think he wanted any part of this?"
Déjà vu is the experience of being certain that you have experienced or seen a new situation previously – you feel as though the event has already happened or is repeating itself.
The experience is usually accompanied by a strong sense of familiarity and a sense of eeriness, strangeness, or weirdness. The “previous” experience is usually attributed to a dream, but sometimes there is a firm sense that it has truly occurred in the past.
Déjà vécu is what most people are experiencing when they think they are experiencing deja vu.
Déjà vu is the sense of having seen something before, whereas déjà vécu is the experience of having seen an event before, but in great detail – such as recognizing smells and sounds.
Déjà visité is a less common experience and it involves an uncanny knowledge of a new place. For example, you may know your way around a a new town or a landscape despite having never been there, and knowing that it is impossible for you to have this knowledge.
Déjà senti is the phenomenon of having “already felt” something. This is exclusively a mental phenomenon and seldom remains in your memory afterwards.
You could think of it as the feeling of having just spoken, but realizing that you, in fact, didn’t utter a word.
Jamais vu (never seen) describes a familiar situation which is not recognized. It is often considered to be the opposite of déjà vu and it involves a sense of eeriness. The observer does not recognize the situation despite knowing rationally that they have been there before.
Chris Moulin, of Leeds University, asked 92 volunteers to write out “door” 30 times in 60 seconds. He reported that 68% of the precipitants showed symptoms of jamais vu, such as beginning to doubt that “door” was a real word. This has lead him to believe that jamais vu may be a symptom of brain fatigue.
Presque vu is very similar to the “tip of the tongue” sensation – it is the strong feeling that you are about to experience an epiphany – though the epiphany seldom comes.
L’esprit de l’Escalier
L’esprit de l’escalier (stairway wit) is the sense of thinking of a clever comeback when it is too late.
Capgras delusion is the phenomenon in which a person believes that a close friend or family member has been replaced by an identical looking impostor. This could be tied in to the old belief that babies were stolen and replaced by changelings in medieval folklore, as well as the modern idea of aliens taking over the bodies of people on earth to live amongst us for reasons unknown. This delusion is most common in people with schizophrenia but it can occur in other disorders.
Fregoli delusion is a rare brain phenomenon in which a person holds the belief that different people are, in fact, the same person in a variety of disguises. It is often associated with paranoia and the belief that the person in disguise is trying to persecute them.
It was first reported in 1927 in the case study of a 27-year-old woman who believed she was being persecuted by two actors whom she often went to see at the theatre. She believed that these people “pursued her closely, taking the form of people she knows or meets”.
Prosopagnosia is a phenomenon in which a person is unable to recognize faces of people or objects that they should know. People experiencing this disorder are usually able to use their other senses to recognize people – such as a person’s perfume, the shape or style of their hair, the sound of their voice, or even their gait. A classic case of this disorder was presented in the 1998 book (and later Opera by Michael Nyman) called “The man who mistook his wife for a hat”.